Try not to spend spend so much time in the grey areas.  

Attempting to get mental clarity on a particular situation.  Feeling like I’m pedaling backwards. It’s emerging but can’t do a single fucking thing about it.  It’s ridiculous and I acknowledge it and that is THE worst part.

“For after all, what can memory actually do, the poor thing? It is only capable of retaining a paltry little scrap of the past, and no one knows why just this scrap and not some other one, since in each of us the choice occurs mysteriously, outside our will or our interests.”